Diffiuculty at home

Well I am pregnant and very tired and Gavin is sick. Brought him to the doctors office, and they did a chest x-ray and he has croop and beginning stages of pneomia. So we put him on antibiotics, and a lot of cough, cold medicine. He is a sick little boy who lost his voice. Once we got home from the doctors office, I started having some spotting. This has never happened to me before. I was scared. So I called and they told me to watch it and scheduled a appointment for me for a couple of days later. Well the spotting continued and has now been getting worse. They did some blood work on me, and they are checking my blood levels.
They scheduled me for a ultrasound and more blood work. I had the ultrasound, and it is not looking good. They said I am only 4 weeks along, which is not correct. The ultrasound tech saw a sac but cant see a baby and found a sist on my right ovary. Scary. I am very scared. I cried on my way home for the appt. Today they are suppose to call with the Doctors/radiologist report. So I have been praying for Gods will to be done. Whatever the plan is let it be done. However, I am afraid of whats to come.

A big surprise for 2009

Well on New years day I found out I am pregnant. What a suprise this- but we are happy. It does put a wrench in our adoption plans. I cant go to Guatemala like I was planning on either. What is Gods plan for me? My family?
I have mixed emotions. So confused. Kind of feel like I might let down a child. (our child waiting to be adopted in Ethiopia)
So many questions, just putting my faith in God and know its his will for my life. He is in control and I know he has a plan. So I life my hands and give it to God. I rejoice in knowing he is all Knowing.